I know I'm generally morally opposed to worrying in general, especially something so in the future, so vague, so uncertain, but I'm scared of investing so much time and trust and love and then it being for nothing.
If Adam got everything he dreamt of, it would take him far away from here.  And if I followed my desires, I wouldn't be following him there.  I want to ask him if he'd really transfer to Eastman and leave me here, but that's a year or more away.  And lots of things will change in the meantime, I know.